HEAR MY CRY, OH LORD. ATTEND UNTO MY PRAYER…

Do we really know what we ask when we say, “Search my heart, Lord….reveal any wicked way about me?” As I meditate on this it just seems to get deeper and deeper. I am becoming more and more aware of how much I need God’s grace. Without His grace as my covering, I would surely be vaporized in the consuming fire of His presence because my heart is so deceitful. Coming into His Holy presence causes me to know how much I need Him. My heart is overwhelmed….

 Lord, I cry out as David did…search my heart…know every wicked thing about me….Reveal to me whatever might be there that blocks your holy presence from residing in me. Let the motives of my heart be pure. I seek holiness and I know that pureness of heart is a key. It is with a little trepidation that I even pray this prayer…and yet, I know it is vital. I am often blind to my own sin and denial is my worst enemy. Having spent a life time justifying, minimizing and denying reality, Lord, it is hard to really know my own heart. Holy Spirit, expose my foes…expose the enemies of my soul that lie deep inside me…I am my own worst enemy many times and I don’t even realize it. I have been conditioned by this world and I am weary of it. I want to walk in the freedom and the holiness you have promised me. I want to be pure and holy before you. I want my heart to be your resting place…I want to walk with you in the secret place and rest in the shadow of your wings.  

“Then know my heart as it is demonstrated through my Son…and I will cover you with my grace…Let your heart be like His heart…and grace will be there for you…I will make myself known to you and you will touch the lives of others with that same love.”  

Oh, I love you, Lord, with all I know how today and I am sure it falls short. Even Jeremiah said the heart is desperately wicked and sick. How I wrestle with this! You are so much more and you have loved me so much more…in spite of my ignorance.  How can I know you more? How can I grow in your holiness?  

“…feed my sheep…” 

I hear you Lord. How would you have me feed your sheep? Show me your ways. What do you mean when you tell me to feed your sheep? I have thought I was feeding them daily…is there more? Are there things you want to feed them that I am not aware? Are there others you want me to feed that I am not aware of yet? What do I feed them?  Help me to understand. 

“Feed them out of the riches of our relationship…these times when we are together…I will show you new and great things that are not just meant for your ears, to strengthen just your heart…give them away…listen carefully and look diligently for those that I would send to you…they will be easy to overlook. But remember, I love them with an everlasting love. I died for them, too. They are my lost sheep…My little lost children. Last night in your class, it was XXXX.   Feed my sheep.”  

Lord, show me your truth…about my own wicked and sick heart and show me the truth about you…teach me to walk as your Son walked and help me to know your grace. Let me run with you in the meadows of your everlasting love. Nurture me in the rich soil of your Word and let my roots grow deeper and deeper….always seeking you as the source that quenches the thirst in my soul…. Let your love, you mercy and grace clothe me. Give me eyes to see and ears to hear….and let your love spill over to feed your sheep…to your little lost children. I love you, Lord. Be glorified in my life today.